Posted by ycfoo 于 一月 7, 2006
Ok, I’m a normal human. So, it’s not abnormal for me to be homesick. It has been times before this but there were always a reason. I got homesick when I felt soooo stressed in studies, I got homesick when I fell sick, I got homesick when I was facing big challenges, I got homesick when… yeah, with a reason or reasons.
Only then, I understand why I miss home so so so seriously this time. I have had 2 months plus holiday in hometown, a long long time without any stress at home. So relax I was, so enjoy I was. I do realize that whenever I have finished my holiday in my hometown and it is the time for me to go back to the jungle, my heart feels pain. But it was only for a short period of time. Maybe, after 2 or 3 days of classes and mixings with friends, I successfully adapted myself to the jungle for another time. However, this time is not so easy. I have never been back for such a long time since I started my tertiary education here. The last time of year-end long holiday was spent in Setapak together with my cousin and in Singapore together with my sister and another cousin.
Nearly 3 months of holidays at home together with my dear family. How wonderful it was! I have used to the happy environment and happy days at home. Now, I need a longer time for me to adapt myself back to the jungle environment.
People always say, ‘you gonna back to hometown after few weeks’ whenever I complain that I miss home. Oh well, its true that I’m going back home very soon for cny celebration, but it’s not true that I would feel more released by knowing this. In fact, this makes me feel sadder because I understand that I will only be back for one week plus. This certainly is not enough to satisfy my need. And I know that I would fall into the world of home home home home…sick again when I got back here after the short holiday. Waaaa… !!!
Plus, it’s hard for me to persuade myself that it’s important for me to stay here for another semester. 3 subjects, I have only enrolled for 3 subjects which I don’t know whether they are actually needed. No psychology subject. Stupid UPO closed the psy subject I have advanced enrolled. So, in the end, advanced enrollment doesn’t seem to help. So, why? Why would there be advance enrollment? Stupid!
What I can do now is to tell myself that time flies. Very soon, very soon that the semester will end and I can go back home.