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Pondering + Ruminating + Thinking

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 31, 2006

Have been thinking, pondering and ruminating a lot these few days.
Well, it’s the end of the week. So, officially, I can announce that there is one more week to final exam. And after sitting for 3 papers, I can introduce myself as EX-INTI student! Hoho~

I don’t need to bear with the boring life in jungle;
I don’t need to bear with the irritating mosquitoes;
I don’t need to bear with the inconsiderate neighbors;
I don’t need to bear with the lousy facilities;
I don’t need to bear with the unorganized management;
I don’t need to bear with the stupid discriminating staffs and lecturers;
I DON’T NEED TO BEAR WITH ALL THOSE NONSENSES!

Above are some of the reasons which put me into ruminating in my own world these days. Yes, I will walk out from the jungle very soon, and heading for the ones I aspire. I know, I know the road in front might be tough. I am clearer than anyone about this. Don’t you need to remind me again and again. I never thought that it would be easy. But, at least, I AM stepping forward. I am advancing, but not stand still at the same location, or even going backward. Do you know how bad it would be to feel that you are going backward? I don’t like this, I really don’t like this.

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Attending a mock trial in my college makes me ponder too. I was in the court for 4 hours being the so-called juror. Wow, I couldn’t believe that I made it! 4 hours! Chris, didn’t you surprise? Didn’t you feel grateful? Because of you, I put my butt still on the hard wooden chair for 4 hours! Hahaha…

Seriously, the trial would be an interesting one if they were to speak louder. I knew, I knew that I would get diverted half way though the trial and eventually pay no attention to the whole thing. Yet, I wanted to know the whole process; I wanted to know what had make chris stressed and spent so much time for it. I paid 100% of attention trying very hard to concentrate. Well, as expected, only one hour passed, I got diverted and started ‘talking’ with the one sitting beside me, pei wen. ‘Talking’ as in writing messages on a piece of paper. Frankly, it was too hard for me to pay attention as the people spoke softer and softer. My listening skill is already poor, and their volume drew my attention away. And one more thing, the whole thing started to get more and more illogic. One of the lawyers was asking lotsssssssssss of questions which were not related!

Half way of the trial, furthermore, a lecturer who seemed like didn’t know much about the case appeared and became one of the witnesses. At the same time, one of the lawyers was missing. I noticed how the biologist (witness) became the lawyer and asked questions without knowing the motives (pity her lar… I like the way she speaks, very confident, and humble at the same time); I noticed how the lawyer suddenly appeared late with the face as if she had not done anything wrong; I noticed how the lecturer (witness) got irritated when she was asked with the same questions by the ‘fake’ and ‘real’ lawyer; and I noticed how the lecturer showed no respect to the court by leaving abruptly.

Just some of my thoughts. I am not qualified to comment, anyway. Haha… but I know chris would be happy to see this. Would you, chris?

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Went to Seremban intended to renew my passport. Ended up didn’t make it because birth certificate is required. Spend some more money for the thing to be sent to me by courier. This put me into some thoughts too.

‘Calm down, calm down!’
At least, I still have someone beside me.

‘Don’t think too much about the money spent la. The most important is to get the thing done as soon as possible.’
I always thank god for giving me such a nice sister.

It is not so bad, after all.

Chris, I think I seriously got a bit enjoy of doing this le, it just seem like an expedition for me. But of course, too much of it would not be nice. Very sorry to drag you into this anyway. -_^

I actually haven’t finished the whole thing. I have been thinking so much, even about death. I want to jot them down here, so that I can analyze more also at the same time. Yet, I am so sleepy now. I only slept for 5 hours last night le. Continue when I got the time and the mood next time la. Tata~

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Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 29, 2006

我想家!!! :‘(

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I need peaceful environment

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 29, 2006

WA~~~ I wanna sleep! I wanna have a tight sleep! I wanna have a sound sleep! 😥 I slept for only 4 hours yesterday and I want to sleep early today so that I can wake up for my 8am class tomorrow. Ended up, went to bed at 11pm and got disturbed and here I am.

Firstly, look at the picture below.


I don’t know whether it was the work of a mosquito or some other insect. My finger got stung, and it becomes so red and bulges. It’s like… my skin’s area is not that big, and it keeps bulging and bulging and pulling and puling, and the ketegangan is so high le. It is painful neh~

Then, the one staying next door started her weird habit. Dancing in the room? Exercising while sitting on her chair? Using the chair for …? Nobody knows what she’s doing in the room but she got this weird habit of pushing the chair here and there without lifting it up, so… you can hear those ‘kiiinnngggggggg koooooooongggggggggg…’ sounds. Or she got nothing better to do that she moves the table and the bed here and there… EVERYDAY! So, you can also hear those sounds like ‘ponggggggggg……….bungggggggg………

And some people staying opposite are having gathering. ‘hahahahaha…………..’ ‘Ah…….’ ‘Wahhh…..bla bla bla, all kinds of sounds you can hear. Oh, did I mention that they are having gatherings every day? Yeap, EVERYDAY! May it be during day time or at midnight. Well, final year student. They got nothing to do except to make sure that the person they pay the money to finish the project that they were supposed to do.

Poor me… look at my eye bags… and look at my face… sigh…

NVM NVM, today is already wednesday! 1.5 more week to go! GAMBATEH!~

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My sweet corn soup

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 26, 2006

Yummy yummy… my food for the whole day! Not only this, of course!

Here, is the whole thing. ABC shop. Hmm… mine looks more like corn soup. I put lotsssssssss of corns inside, because I love corns so much! Hoho~

Aw… I feel sooooooooooooo full now. Can you imagine that? I consume the whole thing within like… 3 or 4 hours!! Keep on eating since it was ready to be served. So sweet, so sweet, the soup is so sweet!! Seriously can’t resist even though I know that I’m full already. At the same time, I have consumed 2 cans of coke!~ Keke… I’m CRAZY!

On the other hand, Yik Chun in Setapak got this for her dinner! Now, tell me. Which one looks nicer? Mine or hers? Muahaha… =P

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can you imagine how restless I was?

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 23, 2006

ycfoo^^ says:
got test tml
ycfoo^^ says:
i slept fr 8pm yesterday until today 9.30am

ycfoo^^ says:
jz now bac fr class sleep fr 2 until
now again (7pm)

…….??…..?..?…….. says:
gud lar..
…….??…..?..?…….. says:
u finally got enufff sleep..

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zouk

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 20, 2006


See that? Notice that? Know what’s behind me? ZOUK!! It was ZOUk!! Too bad I only got the chance of passing by, never in my life I would enter that place I guess? Huhu… Boh-bian, my friends are all guai guai lui, nobody brings me there.
It is always said that same type of people always mix together, right? Well, at least, this shows that I’m a guai guai lui! Muahahaha… =PPP
Huh?! You don’t know what’s zouk? Ok, I know, I understand… because you are my friend!

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voice clipssss…

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 18, 2006

Found out about the clip voice function in msn. Kept on kacau-ing chris with that.

‘christina chi da bian (eat shit) ‘

‘christina got no heart’

‘christina is huai ren (bad ppl)’

‘christina …’

bla bla bla

christina ys says:
u yong sui sui

christina ys says:
hohoho

christina ys says:
u really too stress

christina ys says:
until……

christina ys says:
sigh


christina ys says:
wan aicream?

ycfoo^^ says:
don wan liaw la.. so late liaw

christina ys says:
ok lor

christina ys says:
u go sleep

christina ys says:
tomoro i buy u ice cream

ycfoo^^ says:
MUAHAHAHA………………….!!!

ycfoo^^ says:
seriously treat me like a kid!!

christina ys says:
coz u sound like that


ok… I know got carried away.
Go to sleep.
Bye!

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斋菜+快熟面 vs 大鱼大肉+零食

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 17, 2006

斋菜+快熟面的日子不再。
取而代之的是大鱼大肉+一大堆的零食。

斋菜+快熟面。。。。。。是因为。。。。。。
内疚而自虐,以让自己好过些。
我想,是自己给自己的惩罚吧?
我想,无意识的想让自己解除一些些的业障吧?

终于明白,
为何一个从不动青菜的留学者,
会成为吃斋的一分子;
终于明白,
为何一个不信鬼神的留学者,
会成为虚诚教徒的一分子。

我的语文能力有限,无法把那情况,那感觉,完美的表达于这。
再说,
就算我有那能力,没亲身体验,外人不会明白。
就算明白,你也不能体会。

没有,我没在玩弄文字。我真的是这么觉得,这么认为的。

至于大鱼大肉+一大堆的零食。。。。。。
是因为。。。。。。压力咯。。。。。。
我想,这很多人都能理解吧!
其实,也没一定要大鱼大肉啦!
就。。。。。。不停的进食啊!

还有两个星期,还有两个星期就大考了,我在学院的最后一个大考。
第一次,第一次那么没信心+没激励的准备考试。
这很糟,这情况真的很糟。

其实,想想,这不就是我之前所期望的吗?
之前,学业似乎成了我生活的中心。
为了学业, 我推掉了无数的邀约。
间阶的,推掉了一些人生乐趣。
没有,我并没后悔。

只是,周围所发生的一些事让我深深的体会到,
想做的事,别拖。
真的别拖!
你不会知道,下一次会在何时。
或,你根本不会有下一次!

如果我把每分每秒都花在学业上,
我没去过世界最顶处;
我没看过总是让人有梦幻感觉的雪,
我没闻过数不尽花的芬芳,
我没体验过把自己抛到天空中的感觉。
也许,明天,当我踏出马路时,被车撞倒。。。。。。
也许,今晚。。。。。。
也许。。。。。。
那么,我的一生,就这样,就真的这样了!

可是,可是。。。。。。
这‘别太在意’似乎变成了‘不在意’。
以前功课不好,会伤心,心情低落,会让自己好好悔改。
现在?还会,会伤心。

可就那么一下下,也没了那让我下次更加努力的动力。

我不肯定。
是因为自己的企图已达成,不再那么在意学业;
是一层不变的环境把我的冲力一点一滴的慢慢削薄;
还是,太多的突击事件让我真的再也没‘力’了?

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糟糕,其中之一是我所用的品牌也!

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 16, 2006


《——按它!

之前读到关于新加坡的报道时,都没这品牌的。 所以,就不以为然了。 结果,我国也发生类似事件了,还不只一个品牌!

花了些时间找回新加坡的报道。。。。。。天啊! 怎么也加了其他品牌?

之前明明就仅牵连一个品牌啊! 我用的品牌都没在报道出现过啊!都没啊!没啊! (神经了!我神经病了! 嘿嘿。。。。。。没事啦! 小事一件。 不想把压力存放,就随便找理由让自己发神经发泄发泄!哈哈。。。。。。!)

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任性的一时

Posted by ycfoo 于 三月 10, 2006

失望,失望,再失望。。。。。。
伤心,伤心,再伤心。。。。。。

再来个失望,
天真的以为自己够强了,都没在伤心。
闹着,玩着,日子还是照样过。
都不知道,把自己蒙在鼓里了。

夜深人静,总是最易掉到无人知晓的心谷里,
游漫于完全属于自己的世界。
“好吧!趁现在少人,就老实告诉你吧!你被骗了!哈哈哈。。。。。。!!!你好笨哦!”
好奸,好奸的笑声。。。。。。
啊!是啊!我把自己给骗了!

眼泪迅速的流下。
负面的思绪陆续浮现。
为什么总是这样?
为什么别人可以轻易的挥挥手,轻易的抖抖脚趾头,就能得到他们要的东西?
而我?总是努力的往上,昂望着,得到的却是别人不要的渣,遗弃的坏瘤!

别告诉我还有更多人的情况比我更糟!
我听倦了,真的倦了!
不能让所有的人得到平等,那为何制造那么多人类啊?
就像人们常被责备:“没那么大的头,就别戴大么大的帽子!”
只是,这情况,我们该责备谁?

天空不会总是漆黑的。
周围不会总是寂静的。

那时,心谷悄悄的让我灌下孟婆汤。
那时,我就得移动着我的躯体,重复着一天又一天的日子。

我说过,我讨厌总是自怜的人!
这不是真实的我,
这是我偶尔,适时的任性,解放。

4.45am

注:
我很好,心情没低落
以上是昨晚睡不着时的一时感触。

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